My emotions are everywhere!!!! These days I go from being excited, scared, mad, and joyous all in the same hour. The adoption process is an emotional roller coaster; not the tiny roller coasters in the parking lots, I'm talking about the huge ones with double loops and blazing fast speeds.
I can't even describe the amount of times my emotions change in a day, or how it feels to be dealing with them. I'm not really a crier but I feel like I'm on the verge of tears pretty much everyday. And I have cried a few times, usually when I'm driving somewhere on my own, and it doesn't seem to help the sadness.
We thought we would be leaving in a few weeks to get our son, but we've had a slight change in plans. I found a typo on his passport yesterday, so now we have to have a new one issued. I sent money today for the new passport and pray it will get done in a timely manner. This slight hold up will for sure effect our ability to have our son home for Christmas, but it's okay. We have to look at the bigger picture and realize that we will have a life time with him. There will be more Christmas' and birthdays (which we may also miss) to celebrate in his life and at this point he doesn't even now he's missing something here. It's more about us missing him.
Aaron is going to travel to Africa and attend our appointment. I am super excited and sad all at the same time. I wanted to be there and meet Kamble (his name once he comes home to our family!) for the first time together. I also wanted to stay and care for him while we waited for his visa and exit letter. I was looking forward to our bonding time in country, no matter how hard it was going to be.
But it will be okay! As I said before this adoption journey has been hard to say the least. So many times you get your hopes up, and things don't work out the way you thought they would. What I am grateful for is how hard everyone around us are working on our case. We have multiple people who are supporting us through this journey and we couldn't be more grateful.
This change in plans has effected us in many ways, but financially is the hardest. We are having to pay for a third round trip ticket at one of the most expensive times to fly. We are so grateful for all the donations we have received for the puzzle! I'm going to pull it out again and get it framed soon! So excited to show you all the finished product. There are still pieces left for names, let me now if you'd like to donate to our adoption fund!
We are so thankful for our adoption journey and our son, can't wait to show you all a picture of us together!!!